“Lily, I-“ he started, but the worlds got caught in his throat. His stomach felt as heavy as led. His breathing became shallow and shaken as someone who had just received bad news.
James wet his lips and tried again.
“I spent five years of my life chasing you, doing anything I could to get your attention.”
Didn’t she understand that the only reason he started dating other girls was so he could move on from his infatuation with her???
The rise in his voice signified the slow rise of his temper.
“You wanted me to leave Snape alone and I have. You wanted to just be friends and we are. Everything I have ever done was in effort to make you happy. And now...and now...you’re telling me that your unhappy?”
James was pacing back and forth, raking his hands through his messy hair out of pure frustration.
“I just don’t understand what you’re telling me. I don’t understand what you want from me. So tell me. Please just tell me.”
He looked at her with a pained expression.
“Just tell me what you want and I’ll do it. Tell me what you want me to be and I’ll be that for you. Tell me...what will make Lily Evans happy?”