- 16 Aug 2019, 15:35
Simon knit his brow, then said, "when you gave me my magic back I lost Zara for it you know. I would say you got your revenge there. You shouldn't regret that. You really won you know. My life was fucked after that. You should see that."
He glanced to the side, shoved his hands in his pockets, then after kicking at the ground a moment he said, "Look this is really, really hard. and I seem to be very bad at it, but I'm trying to change some things about myself. I can't change the past but..."
Looking up into her eyes he said, "I'm sorry Viola. I'm sorry I did that to you. I'm sorry I hurt you. I was thoughtless about it. I really don't think out the consequences of my actions. And I don't know if it helps, but I really liked you. I did. I was just stupid about it. All of it. I was never good for you and I was never good for Zara. All three of us don't need a partner as crazy as we are to encourage us to do awful, thoughtless things to people. As for Hera...?"
He scratched his head, then said, "I... don't know how you know about that. But I think you are making it out to be more than it was. I wasn't choosing her over you. You and I... were clearly done Hera and I were just using each other really. She was sad and lonely and..." he suddenly realized viola wasn't referring to him sleeping with Hera long after... she meant the test that he had failed. SHIT! No one was suppose to know about that!
Simon shook his head, then said, "It really doesn't matter Uhm.... the...betrayal? Yo weren't yourself either, right? So you claimed? I... didn't want her children to get hurt... and its not like she won anything. It's not like her life is so perfect. If you stopped looking at her with eyes of jealousy you could see that. Uhm…"
He cleared his throat. He was staring to ramble, hoping she hadn't caught onto the fact that he had been sleeping with Hera for a wile. "I'm just trying to say I'm sorry. I wish I could take it all back. I was horrible to you and I understand why you reacted as you did... even down to trying to burn me alive. I just... wanted to ask if you might... consider... forgiving me..."
He was already cringing at his own words. Considering how Lily reacted?... He did not expect viola to forgive him. But after his talk with Lily he thought about his cousin who once went to counseling for an alcohol addiction and part of the therapy was apologizing to everyone you had hurt and admitting what you did wrong soooo... he was giving it a try... as sick as it made him feel inside.