- 01 Feb 2019, 21:59
As Simon leaned up against the door frame he turned his head a bit and tried to hide a sly smirk.
He had known it all along, said it all along. She was a killer. Like him. She needed it, loved it, couldn’t be herself with out it. She wasn’t with him because she did not like that side of her, yet here she was... looking to return to it as if it were theraputic.
Then again... maybe there was another reason she wasn’t with him other than the ones she claimed....
Looking back at her then he said, “Of course he wouldn’t be Hugh. And you wouldn’t have become infatuated with him if he wasn’t. He likes to be in charge, in control, the one with the power, the upper hand... That’s the one thing I didn’t catch onto about you Zara. I thought I knew you inside and out. I thought I could read you like a book. But I made a mistake. I was too close. I took much of what you said at it’s word when I should have looked deeper. Men like Hugh can never make you happy... but that is because you are attracted to them wile despising much of what they are. It’s quite a conundrum , isn’t it?”
Speaking before she could really answer, he said, “You find yourself deeply atteacted to men in leadership positions, even when their confidence screams over blown egos. Even if they can be hard headed, bossy, controling, arrogent... you find yourself attracted to the good qualities that come along with that... but in the end those qualities you despise keep making themselves known. I don’t know if you ever loved Wesley, but you made too many excuses to keep following him and even protecting him. Nathan you hate.... hate. A strong word. Maybe you also hate yourself at times for secretly understanding why so many women find him attractive and are willing to put up with his obnoxious personality. Hugh was a good solution. He didn’t wear arrogance on his sleave. He was a little more... subtile? in his ways but... if only he wasn’t “the owner”. If only he didn’t put you in a position where it was his way or the highway regarding children... despite the fact at one time you wanted them.”
“And then there was Ivan...” Simon looked at her pointedly, then said, “That’s what really sealed the deal for me. You can’t stand him, would never date him, yet you would bang him...”
He felt confident he was quite close to the truth, if not dead on...