- 14 Aug 2019, 12:21
Surprised by the complex question Vera asked her, Evelyn paused then set down her fork slowly. Was this a 'continuity of the grief' she felt? Evelyn wasn't sure but she did know that it almost felt closure. Hearing about the life Elaine now had, a life she wouldn't be sharing with Evelyn, and then coming home her own life, one she didn't share with Elaine, made things glaringly obvious for her. They had both moved on, even if it had been done under false pretenses, and while Elaine might not have moved on with someone else, Evelyn had and while she felt her heart stutter and start when she seen the woman, it no longer beat for her like it did for Vera. That realization was almost freeing.
"Perhaps it is grief for the life I had once wanted, but I don't believe it is grief for a life I can't have." Evelyn swallowed and stared at Vera intensely. "Because I don't want that life Vera, not anymore."