"I wouldn't say I'm attracted because of being related...it's more that...it feels so off limits. It's morally and practically wrong. I've always been a stigma for laws of the world and how things work, and cousins shouldn't work together in that way, which is what made it more appealing when there was something. Viola and I have always had a strange relationship."
He ran his hand through his hair.
"We had aligned goals from when we were children; both spoilt rotten, both secretly malicious, both striving to be the best. The first time we slept together was after Emilia died...a year or two after. It was the anniversary of it...I don't know exactly how it happened. We were drinking - it's always the way how these things happen - and she must have said something provocative or something. And then the main men in the family were killed, and Viola had more freedom to do what she wanted..."
"She dated Persky for a while. And after relentless boredom, she came to me...I said no. I was trying to recover from the whole uhm...Hera situation." He shook his head. "It was only leading up to Viola's engagement to Gavin that we re-entered that kind of relationship. She started living here, I was in need of a release from bad times, and she wanted someone to take her mind off you. She was...passionate. Desperate. She scarred my back, I'm sure. We barely even spoke during any of the times; sometimes barely even hello or goodbye surrounding it. I wouldn't say it was out of love or genuine interest of relationships - it was a primal need that was to be kept between us. It felt dirty and wrong...and I suppose that's what made us keep going back to it."
He crushed his cigarette under his foot, and then gestured for another. He needed it after all that.
"It stopped the moment I made my move on Danica...she still doesn't know as far as I'm aware." He pursed his lips. "But that brings up a good question. Say if Danica wasn't your cousin...would you? In fact, say if she was throwing herself at you despite that, regardless of her married status...would you?"